TRAPPN#152: Phyllis Webb, “To Friends Who Have Also Considered Suicide”

by jssckr

It’s still a good idea. 

Its exercise is discipline:
to remember to cross the street without looking, 
to remember not to jump when the cars side-swipe,
to remember not to bother to have clothes cleaned, 
to remember not to eat or want to eat,
to consider the numerous methods of killing oneself, 
that is surely the finest exercise of the imagination:
death by drowning, sleeping pills, slashed wrists,
kitchen fumes, bullets through the brain or through 
the stomach, hanging by the neck in attic or basement,
a clean frozen death—the ways are endless. 
And consider the drama! It’s better than a whole season 
at Stratford when you think of the emotion of your 
family on hearing the news and when you imagine
how embarrassed some will be when the body is found. 
One could furnish a whole chorus in a Greek play
with expletives and feel sneaky and omniscient
at the same time. But there’s no shame
in this concept of suicide.
It has concerned our best philosophers
and inspired some of the most popular
of our politicians and financiers. 
Some people swim lakes, others climb flagpoles,
some join monasteries, but we, my friends, 
who have considered suicide take our daily walk 
with death and are not lonely. 
In the end it brings more honesty and care 
than all the democratic parliaments of tricks.
It is the ‘sickness unto death’; it is death;
it is not death; it is the sand from the beaches
of a hundred civilizations, the sand in the teeth
of death and barnacles our singing tongue:
and this is ‘life’ and we owe at least this much 
contemplation to our western fact: to Rise,
Decline, Fall, to futility and larks, 
to the bright crustaceans of the oversky.

— Phyllis Webb, “To Friends Who Have Also Considered Suicide”

My creative writing class is turning me into a poetry fan!

SOURCE: ROB MCLELLAN’S BLOG, starsfadein